Demons. Angels. & Love.

2011-10-02T17:17:00.001+08:00

omg Blogger what what what are you doing. i came back to look around for fun and there you go making changes and now i can use gifs? really? have some originality though, like, try harder.

Fireworks.

2011-01-01T01:37:00.003+08:00

I'll say goodbye, 2010. And to this blog, you're four now! Thanks for keeping my memories safe. Now, on to make new ones!

Its That Time Again.

2010-12-02T01:34:00.004+08:00

Hey all. Its been a while. These past few months have been really eventful, mostly in a good way. What makes it better is that i did pretty good this semester. There was Tribute to Abba and Queen which was pretty damn awesome, then there was that whoop ass lunch date with my girls at Kampachi. Not to mention gaining a few close friends.

Sometimes i really do feel like i'm back in high school cause of all the unwanted drama, but i'm lucky to have no-bullshit friends. I'm not saying that i'm all mature and shit, but things really do get out of hand sometimes with people.

First of all, there's like... 'Omg i'm so in love with ABC that i would post about it everyday on Facebook to make everyone vomit'... Then there's 'Omg i can't believe you are such a loser lameface but i won't say the name cause i'm passive agressive like that'... Or 'i am so emo i cut myself today i love how i bleed'...

Okay enough about that. So after my last exam for the semester, i spent the remaining days in KL playing Fatal Frame 3 and Assassin's Creed Brotherhood with Daniel and Marcel. I really had a great time hanging out with them.

One of the best people in my life is leaving for good on Friday. She's finally graduated and its time to go back home to her family in the U.S.
Cheryl, thank you for everything. You probably won't ever read this, but... For the times you picked me up from the station from my hurricane trips back to Ipoh, for the Dim Sum nights, the movie dates, the Pappa Rich dinners, performing with you for your recitals... Everything. Thank you for being such an awesome friend!! Love you always.

Honestly, Can You Believe We Crossed The World While It's Asleep?

2010-10-21T10:25:00.005+08:00

Warning : Emo post ahead. Well, sort of.

So i went to Paramore's gig on Tuesday night and i have to say, the next time they get here, i will go up on stage with them. You know during the concert, people should be sharing the experience and enjoying it together, but so many selfish assholes were pushing and doing things they shouldn't be doing. I don't think they are considered fans. Everyone was there for Paramore, but the fact that so many people there were rude and selfish was disappointing. There were even people who started smoking halfway through the concert.

I was hanging out in front of the F.O.H with Clinton, Alvin, Shan, Omar and Laura during the opening act and Shan looked behind. Guess what she saw?

PARAMORE WAS STANDING RIGHT BEHIND THE F.O.H! And we were the only ones who noticed!

So i was waving like an idiot saying hi and people in the front started to notice and crowd at the back to take pictures. (Well, sucks for those 'hardcore fans' cause they were too busy pushing each other in the front)

I snapped a few pictures, but they were really really really blur so i guess i wouldn't be posting them up at all.

Except this one.

Sigh* Wish i had a proper camera.

But anyway the concert was out of this world and worth the 300 bucks i paid. I would definitely call them true performers and the energy they had was unbelieveable. To headbang AND sing at the same time?? Hayley you're so awesome.

I may not be as hardcore as those people who CAMP at hotels and airports to see them pass by or line up at the gates a day before the concert, but i appreciate the music they give us and the showmanship they possess. Not forgetting, since i'm also a music student, the sound was pretty decent too.

The show lasted around 2 hours i think? First Tribute to ABBA and Queen, and now PARAMORE. Who could ask for more?

But now i think i'm suffering from withdrawal syndrome. I feel so empty now that Tribute is over, Paramore is done and all i can look forward to are assignments and deadlines. I feel so un-motivated and sad at the same time. Its really weird to feel like this but i dunno why i'm feeling it.

This tribute is the last for a few of my closest friends. I'll miss them so much and i'll be left alone here.

There may never be another Tribute that is as personal to me as this, and everyone was like a family.

Now that i have to get back to life, it doesn't feel like a life.

Yesterday i had dinner with Cliff, Laura, Simon, Ovira, Richie, Dan and Ui Li. We talked about everything, including Tribute. I miss it, i miss everything.

I think i'm done.

ICS TRIBUTE TO ABBA & QUEEN : The Aftermath.

2010-10-17T12:34:00.002+08:00

It's been a long, hard and really hectic two months.
After all those practices, rehearsals, rundowns, fights, laughs, screaming and shouting...
We did it.
We pulled it off.
We nailed it.

I'm relieved its finally done, but at the same time... I wish we could relive it again.

I love you all.

Adrienne.

More photos here.

You Don't Have To Put On The Red Light...

2010-09-30T21:41:00.002+08:00

I've loved you since i knew you.

I wouldn't talk down to you.

I have to tell you just how i feel.

I won't share you with another...

It Is Done.

2010-09-13T23:53:00.002+08:00

All Over The World.

2010-09-12T10:44:00.004+08:00

So i'm back in Ipoh but actually its already my last day... Taking the train back to the hellhole later. If only i could come back every week! Sigh*

Things have been tiring lately, since Tribute to ABBA rehearsals have been going full speed for a month now. Night sessions haven't even started and i'm already scared!

I didn't think that i'd be worried about Western Music History but ever since we got a new Spanish lecturer, it doesn't look very bright at the other side of the tunnel... 0_____o

So have you heard?

PARAMORE IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG *SPAZZING OUT* OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.....................................

YES I WILL BE GOING ARE YOU KIDDING ME???

And if i forgot to mention earlier,
In whatever free time i've managed to salvage, i've been playing Star Craft 2.

And in other, equally exciting news,

RESIDENT EVIL AFTERLIFE IS OUT AND I'M WATCHING IT TONIGHT BITCHES!

Deuces.

P Is For...

2010-08-31T16:13:00.002+08:00

I think patience is something that will take a long time to master. To have this skill, i think i would have to be a vegetarian, do yoga, maybe tai chi etc etc...
Cause to be patient with number one ASSHOLES?
I think i might just die young.
I don't know how you manage to still have friends.
And i also don't know how you managed not to get beat up at least once your whole life for being such a douche.
A DOUCHE!

Message In A Bottle.

2010-08-22T20:17:00.002+08:00

Today was considered a kind of i haz a happy day. I found a beanie that cost me 50 bucks ZOMG. Yes it was an impulsive decision, i shall never do that againnnn T_______T (we'll see)

I also bought a shirt from Cotton On, which cost me 100 bucks, double T____________T
But its ok, i like it very much..

I also bought a 3 buck bottle of water from Cotton On because its for charity. The packaging looks really appealing too, that's why i asked about it in the first place.

So all in all, i haz a happy. :D

Tomorrow i will not haz a happy anymore because its Monday again. T____________T

So Far.

2010-08-13T10:57:00.002+08:00

ZOMG.

Its only week 6. And i want a holiday so badly!!!

Tribute practice everyday, on top of 9am classes everyday + homework and on top of that, being sick which took away the previous weekend i had. Weekends are like the save points you have when you play games. So you can finally shut down and breathe! If you've forgotten to...

Does anyone like Nicki Minaj?? She is actually a really really badass female rapper. She's like the female version of Lil Wayne. Put her in a song and it automatically becomes a hit.

We'll Be A Dream.

2010-08-08T19:20:00.000+08:00

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Lonely World.

2010-07-30T11:25:00.002+08:00

It does get quite lonely when i look at my blogroll and everyone barely writes anymore... Does that mean i'm ahead, or far far behind?

I feel really excited and humbled to be a part of this semester's Tribute to ABBA and Queen.
I am also scared at the same time.

Wish there were train tickets to go home this weekend. They're always sold out.

Common Rotation.

2010-07-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

People are funny sometimes. One minute they can be your close friend, and the next they barely say ten words to you. Its confusing sometimes. It makes me feel like i did something wrong or said something bad. I dunno. But i know i won't treat people that way.

I just wish they didn't too.

When The Tides Turn.

2010-07-20T19:36:00.003+08:00

So hanging out with Cheryl on Sunday was awesome. Went to church, and then proceeded back to her place for a cooking session, o yeah. We also went to watch Inception, another awesome movie, imho.

There's no news about Tribute so i'm just waiting, and waiting... And waiting...

But anyway, i have 9am classes from Monday to Thursday this semester, so i'm kinda trying to force myself to become a morning person. There's like a dim light at the end of the tunnel. Wait who am i kidding its pitch black! LOLOLOL and I'm a rockstar like that.

Been staying away from the poison that is McDonald's with exception of today, which was a despo case so it doesn't count? But yeah i'm still staying away from that shit for as long as possible.

I can't wait to get busy and starting working and getting crazy.

Haru won't be around anymore since she's going back to Korea, and i'm really really really bummed out about it cause she's like one of my closest friends. She's so real and down to earth its so difficult to meet people like that anymore.
Especially the down to earth part.

So i recently moved out of the shithole on the 17th floor and now i'm in a less shittier shithole on the 7th floor. I moved in to a nicer, less hazardous place but its like infested with red ants: a fact i did not have any idea of so its kinda like a 'small detail' they left out accidentally intentionally.

But you know, i just have to remain calm and wait for the owner of the house to come and check up on us to tell her about the problems.

Hygiene is another thing and i will admit, i am pretty much an anal person when it comes to keeping the house clean, so its a little frustrating sometimes if the other inhabitants don't pull their own weight. No names mentioned.

Sigh. Its a little frustrating sometimes, to say the least.

Eclipse.

2010-07-15T16:37:00.003+08:00

The only probable reason for me liking Eclipse would be
1) Dakota Fanning (though she only appeared for about 10 minutes max)
2) Jodelle Ferland because ;

she went from this

to this

to a short-lived newborn vampire whose picture i couldn't find probably cause of copyright issues.

But well thats the only relation to Silent Hill so i actually sat through the whole movie.

Besides that,
I probably laughed the loudest at the stupid lines and barely there acting.

I'll Get The Boxset, Thanks.

2010-07-07T02:34:00.002+08:00

Today, i learned for the trillionth time that the truth. sucks.
Getting to know someone is great, it forms a connection and all.

Then you get to know each other more, things start to get comfortable enough to tell you all their deepest darkest buried away in the closet kind of secrets.
It starts to suck cause this perfect connection becomes frayed and starts to have flaws cause of what you hear.
Then you try to mend it and patch it back up cause whoever that is is someone special to you in some way.

But at the end of the day, you wish you never knew the truth.

Cause love is hard to get.

You're just scratching the surface, trying to breathe.

Truth hurts.

When Its Time.

2010-06-30T22:33:00.001+08:00

Everybody leaves. Its no fucking joke.
Everybody just... Leaves.

Taking A Walk.

2010-06-24T01:17:00.002+08:00

I was bored so i started reading my blog from like, waaaaay back when. Then i realised that i used to love to write. Like even when i blog there's so many things i wanna talk about. I changed so much, i shit you not. I was an angry, angsty, rebellious teen like literally.

I remember being someone who would just hurt people and break hearts.
Excuse me for the narcissism, but everyone has their highs and lows so gimme a friggin' break already.

I haven't been very productive as of late, being on break and all. What i have been doing was playing some super old school games that i used to play and didn't know what to do.
Good times, good times.

I'm really not one for bullshit but you know, sometimes you accidentally step into it and there you go, you take forever to clean that shit up. I don't mean that in a literal way obviously but you catch my drift. And in my teenage days, i would've probably needed a tractor or something.
My dad actually had one of my teachers spy on me in school. That's how bad it was.
Whatever that had to do with music, i did great in at school. Studies, not so much.

I have a plan now. Get my shit done, get out of here and move to L.A. cause that's my dream place. If only things were so easy... But i'm not giving this dream up.

I don't really know who reads my blog anymore so i guess i'm just talking to myself, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, considering i haven't really like, had a real for real talk with anyone so to speak.

Anyway, i watched Toy Story 3 with my mom and my bro last Sunday, and it was legen-- wait for it... ---dary. Legendary.
My mom and i were laughing so bad that my bro had to tell us to shut up a little. What a spoil sport. And for the record, Spanish Buzz beats American Buzz any day. Any day.

Peoples should also check out older movies like The Blind Side, Precious, Spirited Away and Ponyo. Those were really really good.

I'm not really into the whole gut spilling action stuff but Resident Evil will always have a place in my heart. Cause the game was the shizz bitches! Silent Hill too. Other than that, i tend to stay away from that genre basically.

So that's about it for now. Been a really long while since i had so much to write about.

Deuces, goodnight.

Keep It All In.

2010-06-23T11:34:00.001+08:00

At the end of the day, the world is still a superficial, heartless bitch.

Say Aahhhh.

2010-06-16T11:31:00.003+08:00

Hey gummibears,

I turned 20 last Sunday, had a nice dinner with the family.
Anyway two weeks ago i went to Langkawi with the crazies. It was good, 'cept for the fact that i couldn't swim cause... Jaws would come after me. Mwahahahahahah.

It was hot there. Like, sticky heat.

Right now i'm attempting to complete Silent Hill Homecoming.
I cannot call myself a fan and not try to brave the crazy Otherworld.
But i really dig the soundtracks. Wish i could do video game sounds in the future.
My dad actually said i should try that since i love playing games so much.
Like, if i had the money i would buy a PC just for gaming and get the ps3.
But i don't have the money...
Sigh.

Mmmmmyeahhhhh. Nurses.

Cause Its A Lie.

2010-06-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

And i thought i had one day to finally feel special...

Do You Realize What You Say?

2010-06-05T11:40:00.002+08:00

Till today i still see people using the words 'gay' or 'homo' as an insult.

i.e Man, that post is so gay.
i.e Your top is kinda gay.

What the fuck?

Gay people never say things like ' Your t-shirt is so straight-homophobic-bastard. '

So what gives you the right to say things like that?

Nearing.

2010-05-23T13:58:00.002+08:00

The end of my fifth semester in ICOM is coming to an end in 5 days. And then my seniors are leaving. I am in some sort of pain, though we aren't the closest of friends. We had good times.
I've had to deal with close people leaving since the day I stepped into Elementary. The pain just increased as i grew up and i can't do anything about it.

I still have two years. Two more years to deal with goodbyes in college.
Will i last that long anyway?

I auditioned for next semester's Tribute to ABBA/Queen. Do you think i will get in?
I didn't even plan to audition, solely out of humility and really really little confidence.
Then Haru convinced me to audition with her. If i really do get in, i owe it to her.
I love ABBA. I grew up with them. But is that enough?

Don't Do It.

2010-05-15T20:45:00.001+08:00

Why do people cheat anyway????

Creeping Nearer.

2010-05-11T12:45:00.002+08:00

Finished Aural Training last Wednesday and i absolutely killed my dictation. Sigh*

In other less depressing news...
I joined a girl band.
Star Sally?
I think we're changing the name soon but yeah.
I played guitar.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Spent the weekend in Vinka's place doing 'projects' with Dean and Lawla.
Celebrated Ovira's birthday the night before.
Happy Birthday Ovira!!

My friend was involved in an accident recently and it almost took her life.
She walked away from it with nothing but a few scratches and bruises... But when i saw the pictures of the accident, i really wanted to cry.
I was probably a centimeter close from losing my friend forever.
She is so blessed!

Crawl.

2010-04-27T12:38:00.000+08:00

Things shouldn't have to be this hard.
But they are.

I can't fight all these feelings.

Post Mortem.

2010-04-26T16:25:00.005+08:00

Did i forget to mention that i went for the **AWESOME-EST** Video Games Live concert?
Everything was great except for the fact that there was no surround speakers in the Plenary Hall so everything was a bit soft.
But WHAT THE HELL, they played the METAL GEAR SOLID THEME AND ALSO SNAKE EATER WITH NORIHIKO HIBINO ON THE SAX HELLO???!!?!?!?!?!

AND AND AND AND ALSO GOD OF WAR! AND ALSO ONE WINGED ANGEL FROM FFVII!!!!?!?!?!?!?!!!

(They didn't play the Silent Hill 2 song tho. That i hated them for.)

I enjoyed almost every single moment of it nonetheless.

Did i also mention that I got involved in my college's tribute series to U2?
I didn't know a single song of theirs until i got involved.
I didn't expect doing the lighting for the concert was going to be THAT stressful!!!

I don't have any pictures of that tho.

Then i also celebrated Najwa's birthday at her place last night.
Had games night and we played Cranium and Werewolf, which was AWESOME.

Oh, wait. I do have a picture of my certificate though.

HEE! Next up, PROJECTS AND FINAL EXAMS!

Just Take a Number.

2010-04-22T02:43:00.001+08:00

I just want to take a moment... A short moment...
Just to say something very small. Very tiny.

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!! YOU MUTHERFUCKER!

Attention Deficit.

2010-04-16T18:40:00.002+08:00

Being completely honest, i would be a liar if i said i didn't care if anyone didn't read this blog.
I do care.
At least i would know that someone actually knows whats going on with my life and cares about it.

I was practically demoted today from something i was originally tasked to do.
Now i realize how dispensable i am.

I just want to disappear sometimes.
And see if anyone cares.

Yes, this is an emo post.
Everyone deserves to be emo once in a while.

No One Reads This Blog Anyway!

2010-04-14T02:47:00.002+08:00

Had a scare last night before bed, Haru texted me and said 'Ady, i think i can't sing that song for your recording it is too hard...' And i was like
...

...

....

....

............................................................................. OMGWTFBBQ????????? YOU TELL ME NOW??????

Then after a bit of coaxing she said she can try since there's still some time.
Now i feel like a bitch for choosing such difficult vocal songs.

Today was the first day i attended Tribute to U2 rehearsal.
I went home at 11.30PM.

11.30PM yo.
Please don't say 'I've been through worse' or 'It's nothing you should have seen last sem bla bla bla bla bla'.
I will keel you.
I wish i hadn't been such a doormat and say 'NO I DON'T WANNA'.
But i guess its an experience.

I don't even know half of U2 songs. I find their songs weird actually.
But oh well.

Malaysian Music History is over. I could probably get a B and above for it.
Now onto the rest....

Week 14 - The Beginning.

2010-04-05T13:03:00.002+08:00

What a way to start off this final week of official classes with lecturers.
I am currently down with the ol' sniffles and cough with a smidge of the sore throat.
My head feels so heavy its like i'm the Red Queen.

Yesterday i could barely get out of bed at 6am in the morning for the annual visit to the cemetery.
It also didn't help that i had to hop onto the train the day before that at 6pm for three hours to Ipoh, and then hop back on again the next day at 6pm.

Thank goodness i had my bro with me. At least i wasn't alone.

So what's my progress so far in preparation for the upcoming submissions and examinations?

Aural Training examination - Week 18 (practice, practice, practice)
Jazz Ensemble examination - Week 21 (even more practice)
Malaysian Music History examination - Week 14 (its this week and i have no idea what's going on)
Digital Audio Applications - Week 20 (I'm actually really enjoying this, 40% done)

Sigh. I have to nail this.

Fooooosh.

2010-03-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

How To Train Your Dragon was -AWESOME-
Its really hard for an animated movie to rank up against Pixar stuff... Shrek was one of the rare ones.

DAMN!

Nyam.

2010-03-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

When i have a best friend, mama always thinks its either MORE than a best friend, or that it should be LESS than a best friend. WHY??

Home Sweet Ipoh.

2010-03-24T14:01:00.002+08:00

I wish i could just go back home right now. Like, seriously.
I haven't missed home this much since... Ever.
I miss Papa and Mama... Mama's in KL actually for a week to help with some stuff over at my aunt's place.

I can't wait for the semester to end. To just go home and CHILL.
Aunt YH and Uncle B are going back to the States soon. Sigh. For two more years??!!!

Life really sucks lemons sometimes.

Drama Unnecessary.

2010-03-19T22:06:00.002+08:00

Sigh... Its not a big deal anyway, so why must you act like a 'sakai'?

Pikachu, I Choose You!

2010-03-16T11:21:00.002+08:00

I wanna be the very best, no one ever was.... To catch them is my real test, to train them is my cause........

And then i realised Pokemon is Teh AWESOME. So i got the Visual Boy and started with Yellow.
You just can't stop playing, and catching, and battling...

AWESOME!

Door Mat.

2010-02-27T13:43:00.003+08:00

I've been pushed around. Chewed up and spit out. Had everyone climbing on top of me.

I fucking got sick of that, so...

This is who i am today.
I can be mean.
I can be a colossal bitch.
I can be self-centered at times.

But at least i'm not stupid.

I'm thankful that i don't have the money to throw around. I think that enough is what gets you through the day.

I've always been told not to buy for the sake of buying.

But i see all these people around me, spending money on things that they may never use. Just to show off.
Like wtf.com?

In other less disgruntled news,

I finally saw YUNA live!!
Malam Nada Biru II, eventhough offered 100 buck tickets for sale, somehow i was blessed with free tickets!
Awesome.... Though i think i'd prefer to listen to her from a cd from now onwards. Too soothing for a live performance.
Najwa as usual was powderful... Sigh*
Really made my day.

And also.....
....
...
..
.

Finally got myself a pair of Headphones!!!
A pair of Audio Technica M-30 to be exact.
Yay!!
Happy mood : On

Attention Seekers. Seek Attention.

2010-02-25T01:55:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

GET EM OFF ME!

GET EM OFF ME!!

CAN'T.......... BREATHE........ TOO......... MUCH......... BULLSHIT..... AAGDSBFDSNHHKKBL
UBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUB..........

*Drowns*

Its The... Eye of The Tiger!

2010-02-18T19:32:00.002+08:00

Hey Happy Chinese New Year to whoever who reads my blog!~ (if there are any)

Braved a multi-flavored jam to Ipoh on Saturday that lasted 6 hours resulting in me and my bro missing the reunion dinner at my dad's side. Oh well...

Felt so good to be home but was really sien after the jam anyway.

Won 90 bucks the first day and then lost it all consecutively for the next two days... Finally got back 40 the last day, thank god i made Blackjack after becoming the banker!!! Woohoooo!! Huat ahh!!!

Tried my best to find the best pineapple tarts everywhere, but somehow the ones this year aren't good......... :(

Only had lou sang ONCE this year. Sad or not??

Ya, that's all la actually. Was very sien the first three days cause my 'auntie' visited me and gave me cramps.

Bye bye!

Hi, My Name's Forrest, Forrest Gump. And...

2010-02-07T23:27:00.007+08:00

One of my Bubba Gump Shrimp & Co. restaurants ain't doin' a fine dandy job at all.

I read good reviews about it, but whats most important about a restaurant is GOOD IMPRESSION. If its really bad the first time, gone case la. Never go back.

So my bro got his first paycheck, and he decided to take me and our two cousins out for dinner at the said restaurant.
It wasn't very easy to order, considering everything on the menu was SHRIMP. I guess Bubba was right when he said there was a million ways to cook shrimp.

First of all, 3/4 of the drinks they serve were alcoholic.
So fine, four lemon teas.

The 'Run Forrest Run' and the 'Stop Forrest Stop' system for calling the waiters was a little too unsystematic. Like, dude. I'd have to remember to put the sign back to 'Run' everytime i was done ordering. And if i don't, they'll come to me and say ' Yes, Run Forrest Run?' pointing at the stupid sign everyone forgot for change.

Then there's the bad service.
Nobody, i do mean NOBODY is around when you actually need to ask for something. Everyone's like chilling in the kitchen or taking a smoke break. And if there's a birthday, all employees will leave their workstations and proceed to out-birthdaycheer TGIFs, leaving all customers unattended. Took us 15 minutes for someone to get the bill.

Then there's the bill.
No sense of formality, since they don't use the black folder/book thingies when they bring the bill. Just the bill. With one hand. Like MAMAK LIKE THAT. Pay so much money for mamak service.
No 'thank you please come again' after giving back the change. Again, with one hand, no eye contact, no smiles, no hand to hand, just on the table.
What disappointment for a dinner that expensive??

The food was... Okay. Just really average.
Nothing to shout about. Deep fried shrimp... Stir fried shrimp... Grilled shrimp...
The portions were not as big as TGIFs or Chili's or any above average priced outlet.
So it definitely was not worth the money.

One of my cousins had the Baramundi.
It wasn't very good considering the only thing we could taste was the fishiness. And i do mean the bad kind.

The Bucket of Boat Trash was...

Not a very big portion for something call a bucket. Two crawfish, some shrimp, a bit of fish and like a mound of fries at the bottom to give you an optical illusion that its huge.

I don't remember what this was called, but i was probably the only good dish of the whole dinner.

This was what i ordered. The Shrimp New Orleans. Looks like Kam Heong Prawn Rice. But its just a balsamic vinegar based sauce.

The bill went up to about 200++ bucks for just those four dishes.

Aw man, epic fail!!!
I am so disappointed and regret that i was ever excited to eat there.

But its my bro's first time treating us, so i guess its the thought that counts. Thanks bro.. Haha.

You Can Kiss My (Cigarette)Butt!

2010-02-02T12:54:00.002+08:00

Everyone's smoking now. Like, that's not cool man... :(
It doesn't actually "cool you down" or "de-stress you" or "makes you look sociable".
So what's stopping you from kicking that habit?

Whip It.

2010-01-31T13:45:00.003+08:00

Went to Bermuda & Onion at Changkat last saturday. The food was really good actually. The waitress served up the wrong order so guess what she did?

She said ' oh its ok i'll get your order for you. This one's on the house. '

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahhahaha one in a million places would do that nowadays.
The food is not cheap, they probably lost 40 bucks in profit.
But wow, 100 points for being nice!
The food would have been wasted anyway if you threw it away.

Been sick since Monday. I really am a weakling. Since i came to KL i'be been getting sick so often. I need Momma's chicken soup pronto.

I also watched Legion. It was nice, managed to keep me awake throughout the whole hour and a half.

I still read your blog. Even if i'm not the only one allowed to anymore. Am i?

Calculators Anonymous.

2010-01-23T02:54:00.003+08:00

In my whole life, the only thing that should be calculating and counting everything down to the cent is a calculator, not a human being.
But for the first time in my life, i finally met someone who fits the bill.

OMG you selfish prick.

I have never, ever in my life encountered someone so OBNOXIOUS and EGOISTIC and CALCULATIVE.

I have learnt my lesson.
When calculators say invite and offer, it really doesn't mean invite and offer.

So there you have it folks. My heroic encounter with a calculator.

Why You Little @!$%!@!!

2010-01-21T00:38:00.002+08:00

Its the second week of BMUS term 1. I'm already on the edge.
HOW?????
Stresslikecrazydotcom!

:D

YOU.

2010-01-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

Warning : EXTREME LEVELS OF ANONYMITY. NO ONE [YOU] IS THE SAME PERSON, SOME OF WHICH ARE JUST YOUS IN GENERAL. CONFUSION IS HIGHLY LIKELY. VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED.
I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY OVERSENSITIVE FEELINGS AND REACTIONS IN ASSUMING AN IDENTITY OVER ANY OF THE YOUS STATED BELOW.

1. When YOU are befallen with misfortune in life, it really sucks, but don't take everyone for granted when we lend YOU a helping hand. It really does make us want to punch you in the face.

2. Just because YOU think that there really is a size 0, it doesn't mean that everyone else conforms with that kind of superficial contemplation.

3. Get YOUR own style! Fuck, what ever happened to originality?? EPIC FAIL!

4. Just because YOU think that a certain something is 'pretty' , 'cute' or 'wow-i-should-find-a-use-for-this' it doesn't mean YOU have to get it. And when i discourage it, YOU make a fuss. When i don't give any advice, YOU say i'm ignorant. FAIL??!!!

5. Just because YOU think that you're smarter than anyone else because YOU grew up thinking that way, it doesn't mean that YOU are ACTUALLY smarter. The things YOU say can be EXTREMELY brainless sometimes. YOU also think that we're all lesser beings and YOU'RE the awesome high breed. FAIL FAIL FAIL DOT COM!!!!

6. YOU don't have the right to insult other musicians just cause they don't play JAZZ LIKE YOU. I have never said anything against the music you like. Excuse me if i actually like to listen to Paramore and other non 7th chord songs with 9,11,13 tensions with a b5. It really doesn't help when you diss the songs that i like. The more you play your jazz licks the more tempted i am to have you lick a toilet seat. It's still a lick isn't it?

7. Just because you have broken up and gotten back together with each other 21432562347437358547 times it doesn't actually mean that we are still interested in listening to the same ol' bullshit for the 21432562347437358548th time. If things are that bad, MOVE THE FUCK ON!

8. Just because YOU are a MALAYSIAN/in MALAYSIA it doesn't mean that YOU have the right to conform to the profoundly STUPID & OBNOXIOUS habits 90% of the population seem to be practicing. i.e walking in a really crowded place and stopping RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of NOWHERE blocking EVERYONE'S path and cursing when we bump into YOU after YOU do so, showing off your REMPIT skills throttling your bike's engine in front of households and traffic lights in the middle of the night etc. etc.

9. Just because YOU don't have a life it doesn't mean that the rest of the world doesn't, so stop showing off your fantastic bass boosting sound system at 2am in the morning.

and lastly,

10. Nobody appreciates a suck up. YOU really should start changing your game plan.

Barely Breathing.

2010-01-12T11:29:00.002+08:00

My first day in semester one in Bmus started yesterday.
I now have Aural Training, Digital Audio Applications, Jazz/R&B Ensemble and Music History.
Something tells me that i will attempt to pull my hair out eventually.
But i am really enjoying being back on track so far...
Really hungry, needs to finds some nom noms.
Now that both my brother and me are in KL, i kinda feel bad for my parents, being alone at home with *TABONG*.
That's why i'm gonna go home as often as i can.

(Seriously... I is want to move out. Housemates are getting more and more obnoxious.)

Fools.

2010-01-09T10:04:00.002+08:00

When you end up thinking about the extremely blown out of proportion semester fees more than 3 times a day, it does make you wonder... WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE??
Please await my letter of complaint.

Let's Face It.

2009-12-30T15:28:00.003+08:00

We'll never come to an understanding.
So why bother trying?
Isn't it better to just sweep it all under the rug and let that be that...?

This year has been a lot of things put together.
What have i done all year?
(Not in chronological order)

1. Failed Acoustics and passed it all in the same year.
2. Found someone. (oooohhhhhhh....)
3. Gained a few close friends.
4. Lost most of them... (I'm still sorry)
5. Had the best Friday Performance ever.
6.Busted up my knee for a while.
7. Had a Coke explode on me.
8. Submitted my Final Assignments early despite being deprived of water supply and a whole two weeks of no sleep.
9. Got 3 slaves.
10. Bought tickets to Beyonce's supposed to happen concert in Malaysia. Fucking got cancelled a week before that.
11. Had the WORST ever food poisoning.
12. Blackie passed away...
13. Made Mac & Cheese without a recipe. FTW!
14. Waited two months for overdue pay.
15. Braved 2009 successfully!

So what was your highlight of the year?

Through The Chimney.

2009-12-27T21:59:00.002+08:00

Went to KL two days before Christmas with the brother for a bit of shopping, stayed with Lawla. Played L4D 2 for the first time. Was kinda slow. Haha...
Christmas was awesome, finally had the ham everyone has been waiting for all year long.
Got really good presents this year! Helps me forget the fact that we'll never get toys anymore.
Haha...
La Bodega BSC was crazy crowded on Christmas Eve, had a couple drinks with the cousins and Lawla.
I FINALLY GOT MYSELF A PAIR OF HI-TOPS FROM PULL & BEAR. Even though they weren't the pair i wanted to buy initially, i actually find this pair much better looking.
Christmas is really a stuff-yourself-silly time. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, mamak. Repeat cycle for 3 days.
That's all folks!
No pictures yet. Though i didn't take many.

R.I.P Brittany Murphy.

2009-12-21T12:01:00.003+08:00

(November 10, 1977 – December 20, 2009)

Sigh.

Brrrriliant!

2009-12-13T12:52:00.001+08:00

Its time!
(With a generous amount of ambition and motivation)
To put fingers to keypad.
And blog!

Nyahahahahaha!! Nom nom nom...

Christmas is coming,
Isn't that awesome??????? Huh???? REALLY?????!!

Heh....

This should suffice.
:D

Chum.

2009-12-03T11:28:00.001+08:00

Apparently i was told that... I PASSED!
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA!!!

Anyways,
I'm back home for a month.
Just chilling right now, playing Pokemon Yellow on the PC.
Its awesome!

Its Been...

2009-11-30T01:57:00.003+08:00

Three days. Three fucking days.
Since Mr. He Who Must Not Be Named told me that i'll get my results in a day.
What is so hard to just EMAIL ME?
Instead of making me pull my hair out waiting and waiting and waiting for some good news(hopefully)...

I can almost feel myself suffocating from the anxiety.
PLEASE TELL ME I PASSED!

Its Been...

2009-11-30T01:57:00.000+08:00

Stitching Up.

2009-11-27T13:15:00.002+08:00

You know what i really hate?

When you ask someone to go somewhere,
A movie,
A gig,
Dinner,
Whatever.

They then proceed to ask you

'Where?'

'*Insert location here*'

'What time?'

'*insert time here*'

After those questions,
And more...
Like maybe 4-5 more.

They will finally say,

'No la, i'm (kinda) busy/tired/couldn't care the fuck less after i've asked you all the details and then blow you off.'

Hey, i'd understand if you didn't wanna go in the first place.
So don't waste my time asking me pointless questions,
Sometimes even making me give directions before telling me they can't.

I thought it was me who drifted away.
Seems to me that i still have demanding friends.
Who only want you to be there for them,
When they will never try to be there for you.

At least i'm finally sick of it.
Eat my shorts!

I Ain't No Twihard, But...

2009-11-24T23:18:00.003+08:00

I booked the tickets this morning for the first day of screening.
I guess the trailer looks good...
Though Twilight really failed to impress me.
I hope New Moon makes up for it.

I finally went to see 2012.
It was like, nail-biting-at-the-edge-of-my-seat 'gan cheong-some' all the way.
Though the ending was a little too ironic.

**SPOILER ALERT**
On an ark...? Really?
What's gonna happen then?
Everyone makes as many babies as possible to conserve the species?
Dude...

When this movie came out, it caused quite a stir among everyone, whether or not the world will come to an end in 2012.
Oh well. If the world were gonna end then, what would you do?

Finally experienced Jogoya... Didn't have to pay as much cause there was a promotion going on. I wish i could say the food was awesome, but not really.
But not bad either.
The seafood and meats were really fresh,
Sushi was great.

Can't say the same for the desserts though.
Maybe its just me, but they were really funky.
Except for the chocolate fountain with marshmallows.
Happernesss!!

Ningún miedo.

2009-11-20T15:19:00.003+08:00

I want to finish that last and final Acoustics paper,
And get rid of this fear inside me.

Once and for all.

You Don't Scare Me!....

2009-11-17T23:59:00.003+08:00

A few days ago while i was still in Ipoh, i had a relative(superdad's sibling) insult me proclaiming that this job i'm doing is 'illegal'.
Without knowing anything about it.
Without asking questions.
Basically without knowing what it is.
I walked away quietly.
Though i really wish i did say something.

Well, all i gotta say is...

I'm really sorry you're jealous and you don't think well of your brother's children. I know you desperately want your children to be the best at everything and we're always going to be looked down upon.
I'm really sorry for you.

:)

Not Worth Much.

2009-11-14T13:33:00.004+08:00

Going back to KL tomorrow, but i feel like staying for another week.
But the couch calls for me... I can't study here!!!!
Living in KL gives me the comfort+100 when i get back to Ipoh.

I need to start bonding with the black and white keys again.
Its been... Wayyyy too long.

Nyahahahahahahahahahaa......

OH, here's something for you.
Everytime i read something homophobic by yet another ignorant fool,
I wish they'd fall in love with someone gay.
So they can either live with it and shut up,
Or suffer forever.
This could be on Post Secret, but then it would defeat the purpose of having everyone know i am against homophobia.

Then again,
I'm against racism,
Discrimination,
Sexism...

To My Eyes.

2009-11-12T12:57:00.004+08:00

She's a bit... Clingy, isn't she?
Using every detail in her life as an excuse to fit your name in.
How long has it been?
Not very long, maybe a few weeks.

I really wish i could be happy for you, but its just creepy!
Ipoh is too small, you should know that everyone knows everyone.

I'm back home for a week. Just chilling, studying for finals.
Not exactly chilling since grannie is being more and more childlike.

Been weird not hearing Blackie bark around for nothing with Ginger.
Ginger's been really quiet.
Seems like she doesn't feel like barking anymore...

Out of My Head.

2009-11-03T01:56:00.002+08:00

Today practically screamed annoyance.
I just didn't bother complaining cause i'd sound like a brat.
My nose has been on a leaky rampage for two days.

I don't understand. You barely know each other.
And now... ?
Its so WEIRD!

Everything is weird now.
Ovr agrees.

I wish i could break my own silence.

Wash This.

2009-10-30T03:53:00.002+08:00

I came to the sudden realization that this blog is already two years old. But i've been blogging for more than that.
I used to have a journal... I actually have four. But i've decided to stop writing and start typing. My most personal and private memories will be kept inside my mind, for only me to remember. And if i forget them someday, oh well.
Memories are nice, but that's all they are.
Blogging is great and all for sharing personal things with people you know or don't know, but to me you gotta limit yourself and watch what you say. You don't just take every minute of your life and put it onto the www??
And then, picspam your whole portal with self taken pictures of yourself doing almost the same thing in every one of them? And what's with acting all cute and stuff?
Its 'you' in general, not 'you' specifically.

Okay too much ranting.

In other less grumpy news,
I got invited to watch Cuci The Musical today.
Wasn't bad, i kinda liked it.
Well i wouldn't have bought tickets to see the show in the first place, if you know what i mean.

Blogging at 4 in the morning makes me talk silly stuff.
Good morning world.

STFU!

2009-10-28T18:51:00.002+08:00

All my life i've never regarded myself as racist, neither do i associate with racists.
But god, they are all around me!
First of all, i was born in this country, i didn't choose to be a citizen here and i sure as hell won't stay here if given the opportunity.
This isn't a Muslim country, this is just a country filled with Muslims.
Whatever happened to equal rights?
What the fuck does 'Son of the soil' have to do with Malays??

UITM. Universiti Ini Tolong Melayu.

Muther fucker.

Impossible... Improbable?

2009-10-25T17:40:00.004+08:00

So i'm sitting here, on the 25th of October 2009 at home BLOGGING, having the horrendous fact that Beyonce is not performing tonight dawning on me every five minutes. Joder.

Attended the MJ tribute last night in college, was a great but short experience.
Went to Bangkok Jazz after, with Najwa and J.

Someone and someone arrived a little later... Better censor in case. Haha.
I raised my eyebrow for a second, and then gave him a very sly grin.

All around me things are moving at a fast pace, and i'm still trying to figure out where i am.
Pero todavía prefiero el improbable sobre el imposible. porque sé que el improbable todavía me da una luz tenue de la esperanza..

:)

No Thrill.

2009-10-21T01:14:00.002+08:00

You know that feeling when you start to develop an attraction to someone and it gets you all jumpy and starry eyed?
That feeling where you're like, wow where did that come from?
Then you realise that you spend more and more time thinking of the person, and wondering if he/she likes you too?
And every small gesture made by the person gives you goosebumps(in a good way) and you just wanna spend the day discreetly(not quite) stalking the person?

Haha.
Those moments are(were) my favorite.
The thrill of the chase.
Now i know why i used to ~~fool around~~.
Its the thrill.
And when you finally have it,
You don't exactly want it anymore, since the thrill is over.
It'll probably last for some time, then it wears off... And you wanna start feeling that thrill again.

Then you eventually settle down, with someone you love like no other...
And it dawns on you that you're totally, utterly...
WHIPPED.

Gee whiz, i'm sappy.

FUCK ALL OF YOU!

2009-10-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

Beyonce's concert postponed??

FUCK YOU to hell and back!

This country officially sucks balls.

Why don't you ban "Mrs. K" from her own country?
She dances. Haram what.

Why don't you ban all those local bands?
Punk rock what.
HARAM.

You care about the youth being influenced by western culture.
But you don't care about the smoking problem.
So smoking tak haram?

FUCK YOU.

Today.

2009-10-15T23:20:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, i really ran out of titles. Anyway i have been busy with my new freelance job...
Been sequencing like mad, but if it pays well then what the hell? ;)
Its already mid October. Time is moving faster and faster and i'm like 'waitttt for meeeeeee *pant pant*'

Feels like one day has only 10 hours.

Met the parents today since they came down for some dinner with their friends.

You know what?
I think my brother and i have really fallen apart.
He's growing up.
And i'm just growing old.
So i guess i'm not his go to person anymore.

Sometimes i do feel lonely.

Comfort Food.

2009-10-10T17:08:00.004+08:00

So i love Mac n' Cheese. Who wouldn't? That'd be crazy to miss out!
But i've always been eating it out of a box, which in other words means processed Mac n' Cheese.
One day i decided to make my own. I played everything by ear so whatever i thought was necessary, i added.

It turned out to be surprisingly AWESOME!
All those instant ones were always too much mac not enough cheese.
So i added 3 types of cheddar.
I used milk, but maybe cream would be better.
Not much butter.
Some salt and pepper.

I would definitely make this again and try to make it perfect.
Huahuahuahuahuahua...

Brighter.

2009-10-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

Today was the first time in a really long time that i stayed in college from 9 to 8.
It was fun, almost seemed like i was back to being a full time student.
I wish i had more classes and i wish i still had Friday Performances.
Now the only way is to guest perform... Nobody really cares about that i think.
Acoustics exam is happening again on Thursday.
I don't know why but i just feel scared.
I know that i will do fine but i just feel like... What if i don't?
Sounds like deja vu 'cause i remember saying that the last exam.
And guess what?
I got a B+. Just one more mark to an A.
I don't know about this one, but i wanna ace this, and the final, and be on my way to Bmus.
I'm so done being a part time student,
Feeling so under-accomplished.
So in-competent.
So unmotivated.
So... Empty.
I'm actually really tired right now, could barely open my eyes.

I was told a story a few days ago, more like a confession.
Someone close to me was violated 14 years ago.
At that point, i felt so angry, because the asshole got it easy.
He died. Of cancer.
He should have just rot in jail.
Get raped by inmates.
Get what he deserved.

I'm done.

Where Yo Boss At?

2009-10-01T23:42:00.001+08:00

Fufufufufufufufufufufufufufuwahahahahahahahaha~~~

Can't wait!

Be On Sei.

2009-09-30T15:33:00.002+08:00

It seems like only yesterday Blackie left.
Then as if things weren't shitty enough, i got food poisoning the next day.
It was like...
Puke.
Bed.
Bathroom.
Puke.
Bed.
Puke again.
Bed.
Zoom to doctor's office to get a jab.
Come home.
Puke on floor.

Fufufu~

I think i'm okay now. Just feeling a bit weak still.

Can't wait for Beyonce's concert.
Though people have been talking, saying her concert may be cancelled,
Why?
Because of some trying to piss everyone off.
Hey, just cause you live in the stone age, it doesn't mean we do.
Fucka.

Fufufu~~

I Love You.

2009-09-24T19:12:00.007+08:00

Why did you have to leave so soon?
Did you miss Brownie that much?
Why leave me... Us...
Why leave Ginger and Russell?

I miss you so much.
And i'll never forgive myself for not being there to say goodbye.

R.I.P (2001-2009)
I Love You.

Bash & Dash.

2009-09-23T17:45:00.002+08:00

Went home for a few days for brother's birthday... And Raya holidays.
Was kind fun, met Suyen, Suiee, Kim, Suiee, Alicia & Jane... The only ones i really know since they were from MC.

Did some catching up and stuff... Oh oh, Sara came as well. Hee... Gosh, she's still as cheery as ever.

Anyway....

BEYONCE IS COMING! HAPPY ANOT?! EXCITED ANOT?!

I wrote that everywhere to express my utmost desire to see her live.
But it's fucking 600 bucks for the best tickets?!
EXPENSIVE ANOT?!

Sigh*****

Beyonce.......... You coming is a sweet dream but the ticket pricing is a nightmare alright.

Its Not Fair.

2009-09-12T22:51:00.002+08:00

Grandma went crazy. Again.
Yeah you can call me cruel, but my family doesn't deserve this.
Its bad enough that my mom's practically the only one taking care of her
with her seven other sisters dropping by and leaving whenever they like to
'do their duties'.
WHAT THE FUCK?
Yeah i'm being emo, so?
Stop fucking judging me.

I'm tired of this.

I'm tired of being called incompetant by relatives who think their kids are better than everyone else.
I'm tired of them running their mouth about everyone else but fail to look at their own kids first.
I'm tired of having to answer to these kind of people who are not worth my time.
I'm tired of people who have nothing good to say, but point the finger at everyone else.
I'm tired.

I'm just so tired.

Since the fight i had with my brother three weeks ago...
We haven't been talking since.
This is the first time we've ever gone so long without talking.
Isn't this great?

Mom always tells me we don't have much money.
So should i quit college?

Why do i bother?
Judgement day's coming anyway.

Sometimes i really can't take it.

You're Not Going Anywhere.

2009-09-09T13:46:00.002+08:00

I went to the gym yesterday at RPGC. Everything's changed, the place looks 100 times better than before.

Oh, i haven't told you that i'm back in Ipoh. Haha... -.-

There's practically nothing much to do around here. I want to get new PC games, TODAY!

I'm so bored.

I'm So Bored.

I'm SO BORED.

Mistakes...

2009-09-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

I guess everyone makes them.

I am now currently watching ; Seto no Hanayome.
Which is comedyx100.

(My posts are getting shorter and shorter...)

And The Final Destination was... (Macam itu aja)

Arrogance.

2009-09-02T14:59:00.002+08:00

Sigh... Acoustic's ICA is tomorrow. Feels like deja vu, literally.
I think i'm prepared but i'm so nervous and i'm having all these weird thoughts of
'what if i fail again??!' flying around in my head.

Why didn't i put in as much effort in Acoustics as i did in my other subjects?
I just don't want it to haunt me ever again.

What If I...

2009-08-31T23:25:00.003+08:00

... Did this instead of that?
... Made totally different decisions from the ones i made?

I miss you. So much.

We Still Got Time.

2009-08-30T01:17:00.003+08:00

Been feeling a little gray lately. Like the sky these few days.
Nothing happened, its just...
I guess i miss my friends back home.
The ones who never bother to keep in touch anymore.
Strangely... I miss them.

Sigh*

Green Light.

2009-08-28T13:13:00.002+08:00

Okay, so i haven't done much blogging... I'm just gonna do a little update.
Faz's surprise birthday party happened on Tuesday night.
Lawla's gig with Poova happened Thursday night.
That's about it la actually.

Push Push Push Push....

2009-08-21T22:08:00.004+08:00

STOP PUSHING ME!!!

If i don't come home every weekend it doesn't mean i don't miss home.
STOP forcing me.
STOP threatening me.
STOP being so childish.
STOP hanging up on me!

In other less... Grumpy news,
I talked to Cheryl today and asked her how it was like singing backup for Pixie Lott during the MTV World Stage 09.
Its so cool that she my senior.
Can't even begin to imagine how awesome an experience like that would've been.
Sigh*
Why didn't i go?

Up, Up & Away!

2009-08-20T21:21:00.002+08:00

Once again, yet another Disney and Pixar collaboration was nothing short of awesomely impressive.
Up was yet another movie that wow-ed me.

So anyway,
More and more people are wearing face masks now.
Including me.
College has been giving them out and temperature checks are routine everyday i think.

Oh well.
Its either swine flu, bird flu, mad cow disease or every other pandemic nowadays.

OMGGGG Nom Nom Nom Nom...

2009-08-19T14:49:00.003+08:00

ARGH!!! I can't take this anymore!!!
Failing ONE subject last semester has resulted in

- WASTE OF TIME
- WASTE OF MONEY
- LOSS OF SANITY DUE TO STAYING AT HOME
- LACKING OF MOTIVATION DUE TO HAVING ONLY ONE SUBJECT
- HARDENING OF FINGER JOINTS DUE TO NOT HAVING ENSEMBLE CLASS OR PERFORMANCES
- DECOMPOSING SOCIAL LIFE.
- (actually... all these are just excuses... i am feeling so un-accomplished!!!)

I never ever ever want to even think about flunking another subject forever.

STOP.

2009-08-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

Just. Stop. Pushing. Me.

Mom So Cynical.

2009-08-14T12:24:00.002+08:00

Everyday when i call her or she calls me, all she CAN and WILL say is

'So don't need to come back is it?'
'KL is very crowded everyone is dying from H1N1 just stay at home and eat bread.'
'How come you're always out of money?' (even when i don't mention anything about money)

So tell me...

How can i stay at home and eat bread when i can't even go out to buy some??
Why can't i hear something nice for once?
Why can't i hang up smiling instead of getting all frustrated?

Sigh*

(Rude People) -15mood

2009-08-11T01:59:00.005+08:00

....... Some people are just so annoying, syok sendiri to the max and plain rude.

How Come..

2009-08-08T20:36:00.002+08:00

... When you say 5 minutes, it actually means one hour?
...When you say maybe, it actually means no?
... When you say 'i want to', it actually means 'just cause you want to'?

How come?

Excuse me, but can i please kindly bite your head off?

Slave Auction.

2009-08-01T00:55:00.002+08:00

So anyway i fell sick a couple days ago.
A bad case of fever, headache, flu and sore throat.
Oh well, went to see the doc and got the meds.
Feel a lot better now i guess.

Momma's been worried and paranoid... Calling me every few hours just to check if i've died of a possible H1N1 encounter.
So i just stayed at home most of the time so i wouldn't freak her out when she knows i'm at some crowded place.

Slave auction was alright, not as happening as last semester, but Shin Nee bought me a slave...
Hm, guess i have three now. Hahaha.

Maybe i'll stay with this blog for a couple more posts.
At least i can vent when i need to.
:)

No More...

2009-07-25T23:45:00.002+08:00

I guess i'll be leaving this blog soon.
Who reads this anyway?

Too many people starting the 'blogging' trend.
Sigh*
Some things just can't remain sacred.

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors,
I don't wanna ever love another...
You'll always be my thunder.

Noise. Just Plain Noise.

2009-07-16T00:38:00.002+08:00

It's like what, midnight and my bloody housemate is still trying to shake the ground with her bloody stereo system and she's either singing along or its a really really bad recording. AND SHE'S BLOODY SINGING THE SAME FUCKING LINE OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!
CHEEBYE KIA SIBEH DULAN BEH TAHAN KAOLAT.

Such Rubbish.

2009-07-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to go back to Ipoh yesterday evening.
Then some shit happened and i ended up going back this morning(which translates to the afternoon in my mom's side of the family language).
I'm going back to KL tomorrow evening, which should be translated as night. -.-

I don't think i'm the only one who thinks that repeating only one subject for the whole semester is complete and utter bollocks.
But what can be done? Shit happens.
So mom's telling me to quit. In an almost demanding tone.
What did i say?
Shit happens.

Fast Talkin'.

2009-07-09T02:05:00.003+08:00

.... I guess this is one of those nights where you lie awake wondering whether its worth it all. And how much you think you can last. And how much more can you stretch yourself.

Extras.

2009-07-05T13:06:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i feel like i'm always the one doing the extras.
Going the extra mile.
Making the extra effort.
Getting the extra disappointment.

I'm back in KL. It feels good... Then bad. Then all just fucking weird.

Part 2.

2009-06-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

So i woke up from another dream today. The same happenings, the same feeling, though more or less... Explicit.
Eventhough the main content of it was the same, the setting was different.
I was somewhere else with someone else.
This is too weird i'm scaring myself.

I hope i get to go back this Friday.
Superdad is now Supergrumpy.

And they said i don't talk to them enough.

The Sims 3 is really happerning.
Hahahaha, my family now has 3 children...
Sigh*
I have no life.

Feindish.

2009-06-29T17:54:00.004+08:00

I woke up from a rather peculiar dream this morning. It wasn't a nightmare at all, yet i'm afraid of it happening. Deep down i know it can happen. I know i would have the tendency to.
I can't tell you what happened though.
Oh well.

They say that your thinking matures with age.
I have a father who defies all the odds.

What Irony.

2009-06-25T15:03:00.001+08:00

When i don't practice, they ask me why i'm called a musician.
WHEN I DO PRACTICE, THEY SAID I'M DISTURBING SOMEONE'S NAP.

WHAT THE FUCK???!!

Hahahahahaha...

2009-06-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

I think the only Korean group i'll come to like are the Wonder Girls.

Get Me Outta Here!!

2009-06-22T12:49:00.005+08:00

So... Anyway, i've been doing nothing but chores and gaming for the past few weeks...
Been on Haunting Ground cause that's the only game i forgot how to play. Haha... Maybe i'll play Silent Hill 4 again after this.

Just wanted to spam this post with meaningless pictures of;

The playable character in Haunting Ground, Fiona Belli.

So i've finished the game more than once,
Which grants me access to different costumes like,

Kermit the Frog; and

Catsuit Fiona(couldn't find the original so i had to settle with this) with whip and all.

And besides that i have a dog to accompany me through the whole game,
Say hi Hewie.

See Hewie change colour!

See Hewie morph into an oversized super cute super invincible stuffed toy!

On a more personal note,
I guess i'm just really out of touch with everyone else.
Seems so quiet nowadays.
Its been a while since anyone's come up to me for advice. Too long.
I used to be that 'go-to' person. Maybe i've changed too much.
I don't know where everyone is anymore.

Jump In.

2009-06-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

I'm 19 finally. Hahaha... Thanks everyone, for wishing me on Facebook, those who tried to text my 016 number(sorry i haven't mass informed everyone that i've already changed my number), those who called and texted me to wish me... And a special thanks to Prakhar for calling me all the way from India and my Aunty Yok Ho from the U.S.

Thanks to Irma, Dean, Shan, Omar, Farouk, Grace, Feri, Rohnie and J for the surprise at Urbanattic and to Lawla for planning it. :)

I love all of you.